离神最近的 Shaka

想要走的想法与日俱增

 

总是犹豫着要不要倾诉

 

最后发现一切只是徒劳

 

孤单只是盲目地在增加

 

也许回过头改变的不多

 

我们只是又白相了一场

 

那安安静静走向终点吧

现在 我更像夜猫子

没有睡意 没有气力

总是不能习惯不是我的电脑

大很多的屏幕 键盘 总是无法给人满足感

可能因为它永远都不是我的

 

没有办法安定下来想事情 做事情

总是在担心 焦虑 挥霍 然后 自责

 

我以前总是要求狼狼在10点睡觉

现在 我却总是在失眠和疲劳之间挣扎

 

感觉是一直在往下掉

 

我有时犹豫是不是还是一个人更好

一直没有答案

 

从来没有什么东西来找过我

只是 我都没有找到自己所想要的

 

总是想不断地逃离 reset

可别人的生活却始终在plus

虽然结果总是简单的 数字模拟 1or 0

 

疲劳是疲劳

与失眠无关

 

 

 

 

我错了

这么久没有上来了

别说荒了

估计房价涨到房顶上 它反而跌类

考研麽  夏令营麽

一个被折磨 一个被忽悠

大概活着也就这么会事了

突然很想小石头了

那个叫我傻子的小石头哪去啦~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i got no thesis to write, thus cannt find me sth to do for a one-day-more weekend

left my guy in the white classroom

went into the dark just lingering

quite cool outside

even though cant help to think abt a cold drink

without a penny

i waited in the dark and murmured to myself

came across someone i knew

with a kinda intention i uttered

just few words

lost the courage to ask

simply ket her pass

thereafter, i solely waited

no star above just the streetlamp

another 5 minutes i shall be back to him

still penny less

i fail to get me and my guy some cold drinks

passing by just strangers

i wonder where they have all gone when the campus is full

nobody saw a weapon

but sb was shot and hurt

 

nobody said a word

but sb was defined and denied

 

ppl arent being indifferent

they are just polite

 

some day we are gonna die

both mentally and physically

but apparantly

the mind always comes first

 

in the dazzling daylight

the justice will be done

ok ok ok

we'v been together 4 already 2 weeks

so

i will leave u enough space to imagine and make ur judgement